Saturday, August 28, 2010

Muscles Have Memory - Of Forts, Baseball and Tomboys

Every week, I hear something different that connects me to exercise! This week was no different when National Public Radio announced an upcoming news story entitled "No More Gym? Don't Worry, Your Muscles Remember!" (A link to the story is included below.) As NPR promoted its "muscle memory" story, I began to think about how little I know about exercise's impact on my health? Or the science of exercise? Or the impact of exercise on disease? My mind flipped through these thoughts and then settled on an image - a mental flashback to my early childhood and growing up years. I began imagining the physical activities I engaged in as a young child, and became especially curious how these experiences may have influenced my agility, strength and exercise performance today?

Indeed this particular story took me back to my early childhood, and the quality of life in our neighborhood, school and community. Growing up in Ames, Iowa was like a dream. As a child, and somewhat of a tomboy, I lived outdoors in the summer and after school. I played baseball and football with the neighborhood boys, explored the curves and currents of the Skunk River with best friend Ruth, and raced around the Edwards, Sawyer and Whittier School playgrounds - the second fastest racer in my class! (No one could even get close to my other best friend Linda.) I balanced precariously on train trestle tracks and bridges, built forts under bridges, tunneled into caves like an explorer, hung out with neighborhood kids on walkie-talkies all night, and bicycled everywhere, throughout high school, college, graduate school and into my family life. When I was young, every aspect of life was both physical and outside! Indeed - surprise surprise - I now realize that "exercise" and "outdoors" had been essential ingredients in my life for almost 30 years! 

As I grew up, every member of my family - myself, mom, dad, brother and sister - became more interested in regular, daily physical exercise. Partly, we watched my father, an Iowa State University professor, running, playing handball and racquetball every day (habits he continues to this day). And partly, physical activity and participating in sports was emphasized in my schooling and in a Presidential Fitness Program. From these early years on, until I turned 30, I indulged in/plunged into regular daily exercise, whether it was outdoor play, swimming, canoeing, biking, modern dance, or team sports like girls softball. In the future, I'll write about the family dogs and racquetball, how swimming rules, a college modern dance troupe, and my love for the hot/cold of cross country skiing and canoeing in the Minnesota Northwoods. But this is another blog. 

So it is with great anticipation that I finally was able to listen to this news story about muscles' having memory. Maybe this is why I have had such success in the strength building and weight exercises that are part of my routine/class at Lifepointe? Maybe this is why I have made this commitment to exercise and to this blog? Maybe this is why I close my eyes to concentrate fiercely, and to relish in the "deep goodness" of the feelings I get when exercising?  It gives me hope that my muscles are remembering and embracing their old selves, embracing me....and that they, and I, feel so very good. 

Click on this link to hear the NPR story "No More Gym? Don't Worry, Your Muscles Remember!" 

Submitted on Saturday, August 28, 2010.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Signing up for Trim & Fit

In January/February 2010 (just after the holidays), I received a flyer in the mail from a health center called Lifepointe. I had previously completed 18 cardiac rehabilitation sessions in early fall 2009 at Lifepointe, so I knew it had a reputation for working with people in recovery. My experience had been good. I especially appreciated the focused attention from nurses and health care professionals who gently guided me through the rehab plan. They concentrated on me...what were my needs? This attitude of service seemed promising, and one to which I was not accustomed.

The spring 2010 flier described many different classes: Tai Chi, Arthritis Clinic, Cancer Recovery, Mind-Body, Group Cycling, Aquatic Aerobics, Healthy Kids, Diabetes Education, and a class called Trim & Fit. The Trim & Fit class description reads: Twelve weeks of dietary consultation, exercise and motivation! You receive a 30-minute nutrition consultation and two 45-minute specialized circuit training exercise classes each week! Get Trim & Fit by working with exercise and nutrition experts. $270 for non-members. I kept the flyer around the house for a couple of weeks, hauled it around in my work-bag, called Lifepointe to check on availability and cost, talked with a friend/colleague, talked with my husband, but didn't commit.

Though getting trim and fit is certainly a worthwhile goal, my initial mind-set was not even close. I couldn't imagine registering for the class! First, it was going to cost money, but that was not really an issue. I knew my health is worth it. Second, being morbidly obese makes walking up stairs and getting around quite difficult. I had no sense of my own capacity to "work out" or even to "get trim and fit?" Third, even though exercise had been a daily occurrence during my childhood and adolesence, there was no place to fit exercise in my current work or family life. My nine-year-old daughter goes to piano and swimming lessons outside of school, and participates in many different social activities. Both my husband and I are full-time professionals, sometimes working 50-60 hours/week with lots of travel, and an accompanying lifestyle and social commitments. The time for exercise in this schedule had been wiped off the white board a long time ago.

However, most disabling were my own emotions. The initial feelings of inadequacy and the mental pictures I conjured up were holding me back. I pictured myself as the largest person in the class, the slowest turtle, the one for whom everyone "waits." I pictured the first day; all others would be "trim and fit" and I would be "fat and fat." These "mental images" were my biggest hurdles, keeping me from getting to the first class.  What would I be getting into?

Somehow though, despite all the hesitation, I registered for and showed up at Lifepointe for the first class on April 5th, 2010.  Indeed its been almost 5 months since that first class, and a lot has happened in this short time. The biggest of which was this commitment to exercise for life. But that, as they say, is the rest of the story!

Submitted on Sunday, August 22, 2010

Sunday, August 15, 2010

The Ratatouille Garden - A Side Note

Today, I picked up our vegetables from the Robinette Farm, one of the many local Community Supported Agriculture Farms (CSA) just getting established in the midwest community where I now live. We bought a half-share for the summer, and each week it's like opening Christmas presents as a six year old; I can't wait to rip open the box and see the bounty! This week's box was beautiful, a real Ratatouille treasure of eggplants, zucchinis, tomatoes, onions, green peppers, as well as some basil and lettuce. All these luscious vegetable colors blending in our box, just like the oils, flavors and spices in Ratatouille.

In between the daily weekend workouts, running my daughter to piano lessons and school clothes shopping, I'm making my favorite recipe that combines all the ingredients in our box. The following recipe for Ratatouille is my "seasoned" version, long ago borrowed from Mollie Katzen's Moosewood Cookbook. 

Ratatouille
Mediterranean Vegetable Stew

2 onions - chopped
1 bell pepper - strips or cubed
2 small or 1 medium zucchini - cubed
1 eggplant - cubed 
5 cloves of crushed garlic
2 tomatoes, in chunks, or one large can of canned stewed tomatoes (no salt/organic)
1 bay leaf
2 tsp basil
1 tsp marjoram
1/2 tsp oregano
dash of rosemary
1/2 cup tomato juice (I buy the small cans of tomato juice, choosing the brand with no salt)
1/4 cup olive oil
1-2 teaspoons of sugar (I also use fructose, orange juice or wine to add a slight sweetness)
Black pepper and salt to taste

First, slice the eggplant into 1/2 inch slices and run each slice under water, applying a little salt to each side after wet. Let them soak in a drain or strainer. (I think this helps eggplants to soak up flavor, but this is not part of Mollie Katzen's recipe. I don't know where I learned this? It does seem to help the eggplants absorb the garlic and spices!) After 10 minutes rinse the salt off each eggplant slice, and cut the eggplant into quarter to half-inch cubes.

Heat olive oil in a large cooking pot. Crush the garlic into the oil. Add bay leaf and onion, and lightly saute over medium heat until the onions turn transparent. Add the cubed eggplants to the onion mixture, along with 1 small can of the tomato juice. (Add juice until all the eggplants are covered, and it makes a sort of eggplant sauce.) Add the remaining herbs. Stir to mix well and let the mixture simmer for 10-15 minutes over low heat.

When the eggplant is tender, add the zucchini and peppers. Again, cover and simmer for 10-15 minutes. (You may need to add a little more juice.) After the zucchini is tender, add the tomatoes or canned tomatoes, sugar, and salt and pepper to taste.

Enjoy!

P.S. Eating healthy foods, especially increasing fruits and vegetables, was a personal goal recommended by my Trim and Fit instructor. It's certainly something I already know - that fruits and vegetables are good for you - and a rule fully embraced when the Ratatouille vegetable garden makes its way to my kitchen.

Submitted on Sunday, August 15, 2010

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Scared to Death! What Got Me to This Place...

I'm sure there are many others like me, who haven't paid attention, deny, or do not understand how we got to this place. So, what got me here anyway? The old adage "hindsight is always 20/20" is applicable, so here's my 20/20, "journal" version:

• Twenty years of increasing weight gain leading to diabetes, severe arterial sclerosis, high blood pressure, angina and finally heart attack. (I have a familial/genetic predisposition to arterial sclerosis.)

• Twenty years of different medicines, eventually leading to oral medicines to control blood sugar, high blood pressure and cholesterol, more recently with unacceptable blood sugar and cholesterol levels.

• Failed attempts - a lack of commitment - to loose weight. I understood and wanted to loose weight but it never became a priority. (I tried them all - weight watchers, nutrisystem, etc. I tried them with my husband...we both failed.)

• Lack of consideration for or focus on my own health needs. Something else and somebody else (family, friends, students) was always more important.

• Increasing focus on personal work goals, and making a difference in the world; and less focus on my own health needs. As an educator I give full attention to the students with whom I work, and these same adult students have always scolded, telling me to take better care of myself.

• Most of my immediate family members work as health care professionals. For years they have lavished me with new research on diabetes, ideas for preparing quality foods, conversations about portion control, and more. Obviously others were paying attention to my health needs! I seemed to be letting it go into one ear and out the other? (My brother is one of the most prominent Pain Docs in Denver! If I listen to anyone, it should be him?)

• Difficulty balancing all the demands of work with my family life, which is critically important.

• Years of hiding emotionally behind BIGNESS....finding comfort in eating, loving great food, and having a family who loves great wonderful-tasting food. (A story to be told in another post.)

• A huge scare - an extremely stressful work year (2009) leading to a heart attack, cardiac catheterization, and two new stents in my artery. ("Too young for a heart attack," the doctors said.)

• Cardiac Rehabilitation at a local personal health and fitness center introducing me to regular exercise, good nutrition, people who were interested in my health and fitness, and a focus on permanent life changes.

• It helped that my colleague and friend Deb was there to commiserate with, and to learn alongside. Indeed, she was experiencing similar health concerns, and contemplating similar life changes, and there's nothing quite like this kind of sharing.

• It took seven months, from the end of Cardiac Rehab, to return to the health center and sign up for an exercise class called Trim and Fit. (Signing up for an "exercise class" is a huge hurdle for someone who is morbidly obese - another future post.) But signing up for this class begins "the rest of the story" about my new challenge and commitment to exercise.

• Most importantly,  I disregarded how physical health impacted my mental health, ignored medical research showing these diseases to be killers, and finally, must not have felt myself worthy of being healthy? It is my goal, with this blog, to reiterate, reinforce, and rally around this lifelong commitment to exercise. Indeed, it appears to be the only thing that will save my life.

Submitted on Sunday, August 8, 2010

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

My First Challenge - Making the Commitment

The other night my nine-year old daughter showed me a diary entry she had written in April. She noted specifically how her style of diary writing differed from her journal writing. "See mom, this diary shows how I was scared in Girls on the Run, when those kids chased me and Megan around my school. And how we told the teacher. It's  the 'secrets' or feelings inside my head." She went on to say that the difference between writing in a journal and writing in a diary has to do with emotions and personal feelings. "In my journal I just write down what happens each day. There's no feeling."  In my daughter's mind, the addition of "feelings" or "emotions" makes the difference between a diary and a journal.

Inspired by my daughter's daily writing efforts, I hope to merge diary and journal in this blog - conveying feelings about my personal experiences while also "writing down what happens." Writer Natalie Goldberg calls this "writing down the bones." (Though I'll never be able to write like Natalie Goldberg.) In this journey of writing down the bones, I'll explore how exercise changes my life; but also how my life impacts exercise. I'm making a commitment to this conversation for at least one year. To commit to posting at least one entry per week for one year....my own version of Julie & Julia!

Actually, I am making two commitments. The first commitment is to exercise regularly and the second is to reflect on the personal struggles, challenges, victories and hopes that emerge over the course of this journey, through this blog.

You see, I am severely overweight - "morbidly obese" is the terminology used in medical nomenclature. I embarked on an intense exercise journey in April 2010, and there have already been some remarkable outcomes that I can't wait to share. I began this journey without any knowledge of the exercise world, and though I'm still a neonate, my reflections and feelings are real. This is my first entry.

Submitted on Wednesday, August 4, 2010